Loving Laura

Loving Laura

One the first day I gazed at you
How different you looked from the other two.
A voice in my head hoped you’d be alright
I guess I knew the truth that very first night,
And the tears flowed freely.

Through illness and pain, you continue to smile.
Back and forward to hospitals, mile after mile
Looking for answers as to what went wrong.
We, your family, need to know. No matter how long.
It’s been a long journey and far from easy
And the tears flowed freely.

You can be loving and funny in that world of yours,
Or violent and disruptive with a voice that roars,
Confused and mad to a point that I fear.
A voice in my head cries, “How will you cope in the coming years?”.
And the tears flowed freely.

So when all you spectators tell me how well I cope,
You always seem so cheery and quick with a joke.
What you don’t see are the bruises and pain.
They’re just for me and just like the rain
The tears flowed freely.

Kate Sanger
I wrote it as it helped me come to terms with all sorts of questions, fears, and journeys that may lie ahead! It paints the picture that many feel but are to afraid to voice, it tells a story of our life and journey and that first gaze when I looked at my new born and knew instinctively that not was all right! But it is still about loving Laura.

One comment

  1. Thank you for sharing this poem Kate. It is always difficult to share pain but when done through poetry and prose it enables the poet to gain some sense, sometimes where none exists, and helps others who are maybe a the beginning or different stage of a similar journey.

    B x

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